Blue

It's official, in a family surrounded by women and beautiful little girls, I am having two boys! To say that I was shocked was a gross understatement. Two boys. What in the world are we going to do with two little boys? What about pink hairbows and tutus? Barbies and dolls? I know nothing about dump trucks and matchbox cars. Does this mean that I will have to become acquainted with all the football teams and their corresponding statistics? Who will go shopping with me? And get pedicures with me? Yet even as the ultrasound tech told us the news, I was overwhelmed with awe. With gratitude. With a future that is going to loud and rowdy. Ultimately I didn't care what we were having, I simply wanted my arms and heart to be full. And I am excited, I am grateful for these gifts. I close my eyes and can see my family. All four of us....and I know that we are blessed. So here it goes, blue X 2!
Again....please keep us all in your prayers. And have a blessed week.

Suprise

A little announcement.....well, two little announcements. This March we will be adding two little people to our family. We are expecting twins! The elation that we feel is tempered only by the fear that we hold in our hearts. We have been down this road before....and it didn't end the way we had hoped for. We found ourselves adrift in a black hole of despair. It was a road that I never wanted to travel down again. Yet in the back of our minds, in the recesses of our hearts, we still hoped for a family. When we found out that we were pregnant with twins, I immediately began crying. Doubts began to overwhelm me. What if? I couldn't lose another baby. Emotionally, I could not overcome the sadness that almost swallowed me whole. I looked up at Chris, barely able to catch my breath and saw his bright shining eyes. Never wavering from mine, so full of pride and love. And then I felt the doctor's hand cover mine. And he simply said, "Sometimes, God gives them back."

As we begin this journey, and it will be a rough one, please keep us in your prayers. All 4 of us.