Thoughts on Marriage

Marriage is the hardest thing I have ever done. I honestly don't know how to put into words all the emotion that this covenant encompasses. My love for Chris is overwhelming and all consuming, yet there are times when I wonder how in the world will we make it through the next fifty years? How can you love someone so completely yet in that very same moment, he brings you to tears? We lived together before we got married. And I truly believed that nothing would change. But it is amazing what the significance of ring does. I am bound to him not just legally, but spiritually. We stood in front of our family, friends, and God and took a vow to love each other all the days of our lives. But some days, the love is a little bit harder to give out. I believe that Chris is the one person that I am meant to spend my life with. I believe that no other person in this world will love me like he loves me. I want to grow old with him and beside him. But sometimes it's hard to picture that. Kind of like seeing "the forest through the trees." Marriage is a learning experience. It is giving and taking, and loving and losing, and hoping and dreaming. It is ever emotion all rolled into one word. There are days when he drives me crazy, where all I want to do is be alone. And then once I am alone, I realize that the loneliness doesn't work well for me anymore. Because I belong with him. Every day I try to become a better wife, but this is certainly uncharted territory for me. I've never been a WIFE before. But truly, it's my greatest treasure. How blessed am I to be loved! I know that our future has many obstacles that we have not yet encountered. Many hills that we will have to climb. And it certainly won't always be sunny. There will be rain. But as long as he is standing beside me......bring on the rain.