And my heart is full.
Harper at 18 weeks
And Happy Birthday to Grandma :)
Saturday, March 17, 2012
This Day....
I don't know how to begin this post...but I guess that an admission of uncertainty is a beginning in and of itself. This day, this date represents so much of my recent history. Three years ago today, my Baylor died. Losing her was like losing my best friend. Some may say that's extreme. But so am I. I have no gray in my life. It's black or white. I love completely or not at all. And I loved Baylor with my all. Baylor died on March 17, 2009. Harper's due date was March 17, 2010. And so in different world, (note I didn't say perfect) I would be holding my little girl. And just because she never took her first breath, doesn't mean that I don't love her. Because I love her completely. Her moment in time may have been brief but her legacy endures. She changed me. She humbled me. I had to walk through the darkness to appreciate the light. And that light shines every day now. So bright. 
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What a meaningful day. I believe that through our suffering, we learn obedience, grace, mercy, faith, trust, humility... all of what is so essential to really living the full, bright life you speak of. We learn it amplified x a million...because those things are ALL we have... and then we never forget it.
ReplyDeletePrecious boys. Thinking of you. :)
love the picture of the boys and baylor
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