TWO YEARS OLD

I was going to write a long post.  An emotional one...about how quickly the time has gone.  And how desperately I want to get that time back.  How sometimes when I look at the pictures of them when they were little, really little, I become panicked.  Because I can't remember....every little thing.  Like how easily both of them fit in my one arm.  Or the noises Blake would make when sucking on his binky and the way he would turn his wrists in little circles when he was excited.  Or that we called Beckett our little bonobo.  Because he had such a perfectly round head and a such a wonderful open smile.  Or how after baths their hair would look like fuzzy chickens, all fresh and spiky.  Or simply the fact that last year at this time I was drinking a glass of champagne, crying over the rapidity of the last year and the accomplishments of my babies.  And now this year, I sit here....no glass of champagne, simply because we don't have any, but winded none the less.  At the wonderment of this past year.  And oh, what a year.  My babies are toddlers.  Their personalities are emerging.  Ready to soar.  Here I stand, grounded watching the beauty that is about to unfold.  

Tonight I will cry.

Tomorrow will be grand.

Happy 2nd Birthday Babies.