Happy Fall!

Last year, at this time I had no idea what was about to happen.  Chris and I were in a state of blissful ignorance about the pregnancy.  Life was great.  We were the proud, yet expectant parents of twin boys.  In less than three weeks, our whole world would change.  And the family that we desperately wanted, would now become the family that we had to fight for.  Some days, it seems as if that whole experience was years ago.  So distant.  And other days, I can close my eyes and be back on that couch.  Praying for one more day, one more week.  Last October I had no idea how cold my winter would be.  How the days would be endless and the pain almost insurmountable.  How the depression would overwhelm me.  Almost devour me.  What a difference a year can make?  This winter.....despite the cold, the long days, I will be warm.  They smile and I am complete.